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Thursday, November 11, 2010

正能量之十一月！

今年嘅十一月，唔知做乜鬼正能量爆燈！樣樣野都好鬼POSITIVE，連啲以前應該會令我DOWN爆嘅事都睇得超化，個人超開心！好耐未試過處於一個咁開懷嘅狀態，希望可以LAST耐啲！

開心事始於個MASTER終於完晒，成個人超輕鬆！完全處於壓力大解放狀態～～個人超HYPER！排咗好多節目俾自己，不停出街見朋友，好開心！第一個見嘅人係字字，自從搬咗出嚟之後同字字親咗好多，我好愛我家姐，所以忙完最想見嘅人係佢！兩姊妹癲癲得得最開心～另外一個見得最多嘅係唐白白，先有同佢同KYLIE食咗餐笑到嘔嘅生日飯（ PS．同場見到富二代霍啟剛），全晚個人HIGH﹣LIGHT係我話如果呢個係我生日我嘅生日願望係要變做尤物！！大家都笑到反肚！之後又參加咗佢個電車生日派對，係我人生第一個電車派對！唐白白個圈子我認為係高我一個層次嘅，永遠都係同佢出街先令我有可以DRESS UP 嘅機會，又會見到好多唔同嘅人，今次仲識到好多外國人，其實有時我聽唔明佢地講乜嘅，我諗以我有限嘅ORAL ENGLISH 掉番轉佢地都應該會有同感，但奇就奇在大家又好似溝通到咁喎，所以又係玩得超開心！再之後又同唐白白同佢朋友去咗啤酒節，我地三個傻婆自成一角講埋晒啲低能嘢但自得其欒又係超開心！

當然唔開心嘅事都有發生，但因為正能量爆燈所以睇呢啲事都睇得好淡然！番工啲衰人衰事我當訓練自己EQ，上次嗰個人終於俾咗一個佢TUN軑嘅原因．．．又係放唔低對上一個諸如此類，原因係真係假都無謂深究．．．失望唔多唔少都有但冇好唔開心．．．雖然我對感情呢樣嘢從來都係易放難收，但今次始終都仲係時間尚淺未投入太深，所以今次係有史以來最拎得起放得低嘅一次！要讚下自己～加埋呢一次，學到嘅係唔好差隻腳埋去啲失戀冇幾耐嘅人度！

最遺憾嘅係大瑤公公未等到我去探佢就走咗！有啲自責因為完咗MASTER頭一個星期我全部安排晒去玩都冇去探公公．．．到今個星期想去以經來唔切了。其實好傷心，不過公公走得好安詳，總算安慰。感謝天父俾機會我趕得切出完門番嚟可以送公公最後一程．．．算係少少彌補。我永遠都會記得真人辦嘅小丸子同爺爺，我諗我嘅⻆色就好似小玉。多謝大瑤公公响我嘅生命中出現過，留咗俾我好多快樂嘅小學回憶！願你安息！

總括嚟講今個月以來真係享受到失去咗好耐嘅心情暢快嘅感覺．．．希望正能量唔會咁快走～

Sunday, October 24, 2010

首次新居曱甴入侵記

from weibo in the middle of last night.....while i was still doing my homework:

第一次有曱甴走入屋～嚇死！又冇殺蟲水！好彩隻嘢唔識飛又好鬼鈍．．最後睇凖時機出盡力一腳DUM瓜佢！好核突～啲曱甴血係黑色嘅，仲要射到好遠！

執佢條屍個手感都好核突～

結果我要戴住膠手套再加成尺厚厠紙先夠薑執起佢冲落厠所！之後即刻閂窗開冷氣！以後夜晚都係唔可以開窗，如果唔係瞓咗隻嘢爬落我度就不堪設想！

maybe my flat is too dirty these days since i've been working on my assignments and hvn't do the cleaning!!! i'm not too afraid of cockroaches on the streets but then when they come right into my flat its totally another story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just one more week on my assignment..... i swear i will do the cleaning work once i'm done with it !!!!!!!

my girl's funeral

wanna put back the post from weibo here:

10月19日 18:54

在途上去見她最後一面了....願她安息....她甜美的笑臉會永遠記在我心中。

10月19日 21:03

看完她了....是瘦了一點.....但怎麼說對她也是一種解脫....她父母對她很不捨,不停說她真的很孝順...尤其她母親更是傷心欲絕....聽着她母親說如何不習慣沒有她的日子感覺更是凄酸.....

踏出靈堂的一刻我的母親浮現在腦內....如果今天在靈堂內的是我, 大概她會不停痛罵我這個女兒多麼的不孝...怎麼也不會記起在這廿多個年頭裡我那時曾愛過她.....

我們現在大概也不會知道對方是否尚在人間......她也許是我今生來世遇上過最頑固、最折磨自己、也最折磨別人的人!

各位，奉勸大家要珍惜當下，珍惜自己所擁有的, 珍惜眼前人....還要凡事知足，凡事感恩。共勉之。

Monday, October 18, 2010

emotion challenge

tomorrow will be my hello kitty girl's funeral...

um..... i've prepared for feeling sorrow for the night....

all i hope is this won't worsen the condition of my herpes zoster.....

but i must go...

this is what i've promised her.... n this is the last thing that i can do for her.....

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talking about my herpes zoster, it is now healing but i feel worser than before...... coz there r scar formation and peeling off.....my skin around there is super itchy..... so now it's not just the pain...... but with the very intolerable itchiness......i couldn't sleep well.... arrrrrghhhhh....how long would this still last????????

奇妙過奇妙

尋日好好好好好唔開心的，但今朝一覺瞓醒竟然心情舒𣈱，唔知發生乜事，但個人好似開咗竅咁，諗通晒～

可能係天父俾緊指引我～

冇再唔開心～

之前會咁嬲係因為我 lost track 咗，行錯咗．．．．行快咗．．．．．其實諗諗吓都唔係一件咁大件事啫～

其實，我知自己個毛病就係好易嘭嘭聲標晒啲情感出嚟，一係冇感覺，一係就好易湧晒啲感覺出嚟。

只要我唔憎嗰個人，同佢相處感覺舒服，人地話鍾意我，相對地我好易會鍾意返人，會好肯付出．．．．

所以某啲情况下人地做嘅嘢同我唔相對，挑起咗我條痴筋我就會嚟料．．．．

我呢道所指嘅抱括我對我所有視為朋友嘅朋友．．．．

我諗我對之前講嘅嗰個人，可能被佢撩起咗之後我一時行快咗，盲目地投放多咗情感～

其實冷靜啲諗番吓，我地唔算好認識，大家都唔了解對方，何解會因為人地一時可能冇乜特別意思嘅行為而嬲到爆炸呢？short short 地～

我冇嬲嗰個人了．．．佢都有試圖再 text 我，不過啲 text 其實都有啲奇奇怪怪咁嘅，不過都唔深究嘞～之不過我尋日仲好喪當然冇覆啦，今日就係有啲唔知點覆，話晒之前鬧爆咗人，同埋都想自己再丟淡啲清醒啲先再算囉～好在嚟緊一個星期都唔會有機會接觸到佢，咁正好可以收覆吓自己過盛嘅情感～

太好嘞，自我反省完，又學到嘢～知道自己有咩要改下嘞．．．．

自己加油～多謝天父～

Sunday, October 17, 2010

我就嚟爆炸

我好想大喊一場，但係喊唔出眼淚．．．．．

好辛苦．．．．我就嚟谷到爆炸！！！！

明明一路好地地點解無端端可以變成咁？

明明可以好地地一路做朋友點解無端端要玩我呢？

明明我一路視你為恩人，好感激你．．．點解無端端要咁傷害我呢？

如果要等我報恩嘅話今次我應該可以算還凸俾你了．．．．

我諗今次最唔開心係一個一直以來我對佢評價咁高嘅人會咁樣對我．．．．

係咪又係我出咗啲問題呢？

我好傷心．．．

希望PMS快啲完．．．．．．

依家，終於流到眼淚了．．．．．．

好．．．喊完我要好番．．．

i have nth to lose

ok....just a while ago... that guy replied ..... n i gone furious~ this makes me feel better of how the things ended because now i know i have nth to lose.

i txted and asked if he's ok...is there any reason y he's not txting me these few days........ he didn't reply at first....n i asked again coz i started worry there might be some issue going on with him and wonder if he's sick or anything......how silly i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after the second msg he replied..... HE REPLIED WITH THE SILLIEST ATTITUDE THAT I COULD HAVE ENCOUNTERED!!!!! he said it's cool to be disappearing for a while~ and ending the msg with lots of "haha"..........in chinese, he said " 得閒玩吓失踪有型啲丫嘛哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈" HOW RIDICULOUS!!!!! i immediately gone furious.... i can't believe i'm worrying about this guy and he is actually just playing games ......... i can't bear people as childish as him~ coz i'm too angry i told him to fuxk off and stay out of me...... i don't know if he's pretending or what but he still dared to ask me to translate the meaning for him in chinese........and continued to give me back all the silly messages like " ooo.. u r swearing~ " ("你講粗口！) " o...u nuts...." ( "變態佬") ........ o gosh !!! is he a nerd?! can't he realize i gone mad on this!!!! screw him~ it's really a waste of my time worrying about this guy!!!!

he even still dared to said gd nite....

O GOSH i need time to rest my anger.......prolly its not really anger....i don't know how to describe in english...but in chinese 太激動因為條友太太太太不可理諭太太太幼稚了....... the whole thing is so ridiculous~

i feel better though coz this time it's not another "i've got dumped" or "i'm the one chosen to be given up" situation~

蛇死桃花謝

“蛇死桃花謝”．．．．this is what is concluded by my sister..... how sad~

so the guy is withdrawing all of a sudden...even when i approach him, he never gives me reply anymore.....

i hate this...he is the second person that i'm getting along very well through text messages.....and one day he just disappears out of no reason.....i hate recalling memories with wes.....maybe this is another lesson to prove that any healthy relationship shouldn't base too much on text messages.....healthy communication should be through verbal conversations i guess

wat makes me feel even more disappointed is that in real life situation we actually get along well too......so i'm so so soooooo confused what has happened in between and drove him to withdraw from me....

maybe it's not my problem....maybe he just get back with his old gal and just feel sorry to explain to me....well...to make me feel better maybe i'll just give this as his excuse....

“蛇死桃花謝”...... how dreadful this is~~ is this telling me that i can only meet my true love when i'm in critical illness?

it's the biggest mercy of all that we havn't gone too far .... i'm frustrated.....but i guess i'm not too sad about this......sometimes u just need to accept that this is wat we called " FATE" .....

i'm cool....should be getting back on track very soon...... after all these lessons that i've taken~

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about my last entry, i've tried to access this blog from my iPhone and it still appears normal and i can connect to all the links that it is supposed to go......so is this really a problem caused by the difference between a mac and a pc?? so confused~

Saturday, October 16, 2010

i need help on this blog design

o dear i just learn that people are not seeing what i thought they are seeing ..... i m on the layout of my blog......

i have no problem clicking on the links on the right side bar on my homepage from my macbook.... but then all my frds just couldn't get linked to it supposed to be linked to..... the only items that can get a redirection is when they clicked on "Links+Guessbook" but then it redirect to the page of my self introduction where it supposed to be showing up after the click on "Blogger"....... is this really the difference due to a mac or a pc???? i did a preview every time i edited sth in the html codes and it always showed up as smooth and normal ~~~

who can help me???????????????????? frustrated~

i'm not in

looks like someone is playing games with me.....

this really did stir me up ....

but then i'm pretty sure that i don't wanna get into this.....

if this is really what u want, i'm not gonna play this game.......

i prefer wasting my time enjoying myself rather than being stirred up by some nonsense reaction from u.

ok... i'm trying to make this the last night that i'm struggling with thoughts about u.

tmr i'll be the same me as before and u be the same u....things as the same old things between us.

thanks god i've this place to blah my shit off and self-curing myself.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What to look at?

Could any one please tell me what would u look at when u are going out with the possible date-to-be?

to discover the things that u don't like about him or to focus on the things that he warms your heart?

when u are making the decision, u consider more on the dislikes or likes??

i know this is stupid to ask....but i don't have an answer..................

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Viktor & Rolf Spring 2011 Collection

Found this on weibo...too cool to love~~~

@ALEXSO

：［Viktor & Rolf Spring 2011 Collection ］Viktor & Rolf 的設計一向都是比較Dramatic的，但這也是我喜歡他們的原因！這次的Spring 2011 Collection也沒有令我失望，用上了數層襯衫的層層疊疊來營造誇張的視覺效果，get the unordinary out of the ordinary！

This is not just fashion....this is art~

I love the quote: get the unordinary out of the ordinary~